Well stuck at home broke and alone has a few advantages, I get to write in my blog everyday and it is good for me to get it out and help me heal. I don't think I have ever been through the gammit of emotions such as I have in this last month or so. Some how Managed to loose a very important person in my life and then to loose my job. But I keep hopeing that I will get a Better Job and that at least my life will become somewhat normal again.  To all of those who have helped me cope I thank you all from my heart. Those of you on the net that have listened to my whinning babble thanks it has been helpful to talk. Somedays I get up feeling so unloved and useless it helps to at least have a ear that listens and helps me cope. You guys all know who you are so I will not name names cause some of you may not want your names out there...lol.  Well all of you that I have talked to in the last weeks are more then welcome to come sat night for a BBQ and if the weather doesn't cooperate then we will go in the house and put on a movie or turn on the music and dance if we want and I will move the BBQ into the garage and cook out there. Hope all of you will come and meet my friends here and meet each other and have a little fun. By the way there is plenty of room to sleep and hang out. Till later...Tim