Well I thought i was getting through the rough parts and now fate has struck another blow to me I don't know what to do any more I have tried all my life to be good to people and it just doesn't work for me. Out of work at 55 in this economy is going to suck. I just don't think i am up to rebuilding my life again. I want my life back and do not know how to get it. It seems I take a step or two forward I end up going back 3.  I hope god has a little forgiveness for me and helps me through this. God help me! so all you friends that read this I hope you never go througgh the heartbreaks that I have in my life as they can be devastating. later